I am a walking conversation between worlds—and that makes my presence magnetic, my emotions electric, and my thoughts loud.
Those worlds collide when I’ve had a few drinks—and I love who I become. The version of me that says, to hell with permission.
She’s loud.
She’s laughing.
She’s saying all the things I usually keep tucked between my ribs.
She’s free—and I love her.
But when the drinks wear off and the sun comes up, shame slinks in like an unwanted guest. It sits in my stomach. It coils in my chest. It whispers that I was “too much.”
Where Did I Learn That My Fullness Was a Problem?
Shame doesn’t live in the moment—it lives in the stories we tell ourselves afterward. The ones we were taught.
That freedom is dangerous.
That confidence is arrogant.
That expression is embarrassing.
That desire is inappropriate.
That joy must be earned.
I was trained to survive by shrinking.
To be liked by being less.
To be spiritual by being silent.
To be feminine by being small.
But I’m Not Small. I Never Was.
I’ve been playing small to make others feel big.
I’ve been dimming my light to make others comfortable.
But none of that ever brought me peace—only exhaustion.
Because the truth is:
I am big.
My energy enters rooms before I do.
My emotions are rivers.
My truth doesn’t whisper—it roars.
And I’m done apologizing for that.
I Was Born to Be Big—Sagittarius Rising and Moon, Gemini Sun
If you know astrology, here’s my chart in a nutshell:
- Sagittarius Rising: how I show up—expansive, electric, radiant
- Sagittarius Moon: how I feel—truth-hungry, uncontainable, emotionally untamed
- Gemini Sun: who I am—curious, expressive, mentally alive, full of questions and contradictions
So when I say I was born to be big—I mean it.
Not just emotionally. Not just energetically. But vocally, intellectually, spiritually.
I don’t just feel big.
I speak it.
I write it.
I breathe it.
The Gemini-Sagittarius Axis: My Soul’s Dance
Gemini and Sagittarius sit opposite each other in the zodiac—two halves of the same wild, truth-seeking coin. One gathers words and stories (Gemini). The other seeks meaning and wisdom (Sagittarius).
Together, they make me a contradiction and a revelation all at once.
I crave freedom and connection.
I want to speak truth and be loved for it.
I want to express big emotions and make sense of them.
This is why I can feel so alive in my bigness—and so raw in the aftermath.
Because I’m always translating feeling into truth.
Experience into story.
Wound into wisdom.
I Want Others to Feel Big Too
I don’t want my light to cast shadows.
I want it to ignite others.
I don’t want to outshine anyone.
I want to help them feel safe enough to shine, too.
But I can’t keep dimming myself just in case someone else hasn’t yet remembered their light.
This is Integration. This is Truth.
This isn’t about choosing between my wild side and my controlled side.
It’s about bringing both to the table. About uniting my sober self and my free self. About being whole.
To be expressive and grounded.
To be loud and wise.
To be raw and intentional.
This is my new story:
I am Sagittarius Rising and Moon. Gemini Sun.
That means I am made of fire, wind, and wonder.
I was never meant to stay in the lines.
I was born to question, to feel, to express, and to expand.
My presence is a message.
My voice is a portal.
And my light?
It’s not here to be dimmed.
It’s here to spark wild truth in the hearts of others.
🌀 Let’s Reflect Together
Have you ever felt ashamed of your joy, your voice, your presence?
Drop a comment or share this with someone else who is learning how to stop apologizing for taking up space.
You are not too much.
You’re just finally done being less.
